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poetry for quarantined souls

Earlier this week, I pulled a few of my poems out to share with the world via a Facebook live video.  I was crazy nervous, but in times like this it falls to the artistic people to keep the hopes of the people up, so I bit the bullet and did it.

I thought that maybe, if you don’t follow me over there, you might like to see it to, so here it is.  I hope to do another one later in the week.  I might even consider a reading from one of my novels, or possibly a work in progress.

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the games people play

Wow, how did we get to March so fast?!  Seems like we were only just sludging our way through the year of January, and now we’ve made a slide into March.  My plans to take over the world have fallen seriously behind.  Something must be done!

No, seriously, while things are ugly in the world of politics and the scare of a global pandemic is emptying shelves in the stores around the country, and the fact that I still do not have gainful employment, I’m doing pretty good.  At least through April, because I have my rent paid that far ahead.  So, I better find something pretty fast.

Honestly, I’d be surprised if some of the sluggishness in hiring is the uncertainty of the world right now.  I’ve seen the same technical writer jobs with the same companies posted and reposted on all the job boards since early in January.  At least one of them every few weeks since last summer, YIKES.

Add to that the fact that I refuse, at fifty one years old, to spend four hours of my day (on a good day) in the car to get to and from a job, and I’m left here trying to manifest a job that has yet to come into sight.  It is out there though.  I’m sure of it.

In the meantime, I write, I rummage and ransack job boards, I keep lists of places and jobs I have applied to, and I have rediscovered my love for story based video games.  I suck at them (as an example, I spent almost two hours yesterday trying to defeat the first serious “boss” in Jedi: Fallen Order…and gave up for the day without doing it…got her down to about half health a couple of times, but I’m not coordinated enough to dodge and stuff, and she’s wicked fast).

I am considering developing an online course for writers struggling with the concepts of Point of View and maybe a few others like it, but I have no concept of what to charge for something like that.  I’ve been coaching and beta-reading for years, but always in areas I can’t claim on a resume, so I’m thinking maybe I could formalize what I’ve been doing.  I’m also going to revamp my editing offerings, make them simpler.

Plus, it’s time for Pride to ramp up.  Had my first management meeting yesterday.  Got some exciting new ideas flowing there.  I hope it pays off.

For now, the coffee is hot and I need to start my daily haunting of Linked In and Glassdoor and Indeed…I’ve stopped using Monster (because holy hell the crap recruiters try to shovel in my direction from there) and even Career Builder (for much the same reason) which used to be my go-to sites for job hunting.

Happy Wednesday, Readers.  May kindness find you!

 

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is this really real?

I saw someone on Facebook say that it feels like we’re living in a simulation and wow, I felt that.  Reality seems so surreal these days where you can never be sure if “news” is actually news or parody, and even the real news is so skewed to reflect whichever side the reporter/news organization is supporting.

We seem to have lost out impartial press.

At the same time, we have a government that seems to be bent of self-destruction, forgetting that if it goes, so goes the country.  I’m not going to venture into a political discussion, don’t worry.  If you’ve read my blog for long, I’m sure you know which way I lean.

I am going to encourage you to never rely on any single source of truth when it comes to understanding the reality we find ourselves living.  Truth has become subjective and the onus is upon us to dig through the interpretations to the underlying truth.

If this is a simulation, it is a sucky one.  Maybe I’ll just go play SIMs and make the world I want to see.

Happy Thursday, Readers.  I hope your sim day is a happy one.

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a long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away…

I was nine years old when Star Wars: A New Hope was released.  I have very vivid memories of watching it in a movie theater in Brockport, NY.  It was the beginning of a lifelong obsession, not just with Star Wars, but with the whole sci-fi genre.

In my teens, Star Wars dominated my decorating style.  I collected the action figures, model ships, made my own wall art from coloring book pages that I traced and painted and framed.  I saw The Empire Strikes Back about five times in the theater.  I lost count of how many times I saw Return of the Jedi in the theater.

While the prequels are not my favorite, they fit in the SW universe and tell a part of the story, and they give us a look into how/why Luke was able to pull Anakin back to the light, among other things.   I loved Rogue One, and Solo and the new trilogy has my fangirl heart.  I can not wait for The Rise of Skywalker later this year.

All of that said, you can understand my excitement to get to Galaxy’s Edge at Disneyland for my birthday this year.  We went last week (thus my absence around theses parts), and it was nothing short of amazing.  I went in with enough money to not worry about money, and dove in headfirst.

Before we even got to Disney, we had reservations to build a droid, build a lightsaber and to have drinks at the cantina.

We started with the droid building.  I built an R-series droid, and we had so much fun, we went back for my friend to build one too. Meet R2-N5 and R5-L8.droids

We then wandered Battu for a bit, checking into all of the stalls at the market, getting out to the Resistance camp looking for Chewie, then it was time to go build a saber.

This is an experience you don’t want to miss, if you’re a SW fan.  It starts with checking in and choosing which of the four paths you want to follow, which gets you a pin so the gatherers can provide you the right parts. Then comes some waiting, while playing casual as First Order troops wander through.  One of the gatherers comes out to tell you about the need for secrecy and discretion, not to mention hurrying inside before more troops show up.

Once inside, you’re directed to a spot on the tables, the gatherers tell you about their purpose and then comes your choosing of your kyber crystal (red, blue, green and purple), and then you are provided with a tray full of parts.  They walk you through every step of the process.

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I was surprised how emotional the whole thing was.  By the time they had us insert our completed hilts into the activation tubes, I had free flowing tears on my face.  I’m not even sure I could explain why.  It was unbelievable though.  And then the sabers all come to life, and the room is awash in the colors of the sabers.  I cried more when I lifted my completed saber for the first time.

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We had time after that to go fly the Millenium Falcon!

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There were several large purchases (including my Halloween costume for this year), and then we were off to the cantina for drinks and nibbles.  Again, reservations are required, and you still have to wait in line, but once inside, you are treated to a lively cantina scene while you sip on tasty adult beverages.  Like everything else Disney, it’s a bit pricey, but completely worth the money.

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Be prepared for the immersive experience, everyone plays their roles all the time, and they at least appear to be having fun.  Even in that heat in those costumes!  I felt bad for poor Chewbacca, but I still went in for my birthday hug.

It was fabulous two days spent in the southern California sun with good friends and an experience I won’t soon forget.  It is a good time to be a Star Wars fan!

 

And now, Dear Readers, I need to get myself back to the day job!

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to boldly go…

Among my earliest memories, there is Star Trek, you know, the original series that started the phenomenon.  I couldn’t tell you how old I was, but I can tell you about the ugly brown couch with the weird texture that we sat on to watch it, and that I watched it with my father.

I know it came before Star Wars, which came along when I was nine, and I know that it started my love of sci-fi, and more than that, my love of space.

The only thing that kept me from pursuing a life in the sciences was my extreme hatred of math, and the more advanced the math, the more I disliked it. So, I opted toward the science fiction side of space.

But, things like this…this image of a black hole a ridiculous distance from earth…a beautiful, amazing image that took a team of scientists working together for years…things like this make me dream of a different life a little bit.

katie-boumanAnd then there’s this picture of Katie Bouman, one of the scientists on the project as she sees all of that work coming to fruition.  Look at the joy and wonder on her face.  That is the face of someone who loves her work, who has passion for her work and is genuinely in awe of the universe at her fingertips.

Of course there are trolls out there set to destroy the legacy Katie’s accomplishments for little more than the fact that she is a woman, but forget them.  They can’t take that joy, that sense of wonder from this picture.  They can’t hold a candle to the work that she’s done in her young life.  Forget them and let their legacy be one of the silence that comes when one is ignored.

Look instead to this beautiful image, and recognize the scientists, all of them including women and gay men and straight men,  who made it possible.  Imagine what else they can show us!

And, while I’m here, Readers, a quick reminder that Where Shadows Fall is available for your Kindle for free today and tomorrow, so get yours now!

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running against the clock

A bit of oatmeal, some coffee and we ease into the day.  Well, not so much.  By the time I got to the oatmeal and coffee, I had already walked 1.2 miles, with a train ride in the middle, plus the whole getting out of bed and getting dressed and all of that, including makeup and jewelry.

It’s a whole thing.

I have a Samsung Galaxy watch, and one of the programs on it allows me to set a “must wake up by” time, which is set to 4:30 am, and then it monitors my sleep cycle and wakes me at the end of an REM cycle closest to that time, provided that there isn’t time for another complete cycle.

For the last 3 days, it’s gone off at 4am.  It’s amazing to me how much better my mornings have been.  I’m up and out of bed, dressed and answering emails before my 4:30 alarm goes off.  If I had gone that extra half hour, I would have gotten up groggy and cranky and slow.

Time is a funny thing, really.  A human construct that lets us function within a society, a measurement of when rather than what.  At one point in my life, I was so addicted to knowing what time it was, that I looked at my watch about 20 million times a day (an estimate, of course, probably slightly overstated).  I had to stop wearing a watch to get past it.

In fact, I went without a watch for close to 8 years before I got my first fitbit.  I’d broken the addiction, and didn’t fall back into it, but I came to love having that fitbit.  I’ve only recently upgraded to the Galaxy watch as my Fitbit Charge HR 2 was on its last legs.  I love the versatility of it, I only wish the associated Samsung Health app was a little more robust, like the Fitbit app.

Speaking of time, it looks like I should get myself back to my work.  Emails to respond to, pages to write…you know, the usual.  And I don’t want my coffee to get cold.

Happy Wednesday, Readers!  I hope time is on your side today!

 

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come play with me

I have rededicated my efforts to build on my Patreon, and decided that a good way to kick that off is a special offer.  For the next 30 days, through 4/16, all new patrons, and anyone increasing their tier, will get a personalized, hand written postcard from my stash of postcards, some of which date back to before I could read, write or appreciate the value of a good postcard.

You can come join the fun for as little as $1 a month, but to qualify for the postcard offer, you must choose the $3 tier or up.  And what do you get for that money?  Well, let me tell you!

At the lowest tier you’ll get the occasional glimpse into whatever I’m working on at the moment, and as you climb the tier you get access to bigger and better things including fresh-from-my-pen poetry, a look at moments in the life of a writer with an insane muse, flash stories, short stories written specifically for my patrons, first chance to see announcements, video content from time to time and even copies of my books.

All the money that comes in from Patreon is specifically earmarked into my “buy books” fund, which I will use to keep physical copies of my books on hand for signings and events.

So, come visit my Patreon page and join the fun!

 

 

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go, go gadget girl

I’m the first to admit, I am a lover of gadgets.  If I could, I would have all the gadgets.  Well, maybe not all of them.  I’m not an Apple lover (but I couldn’t find a freely available picture of a collection of Samsung gadgets).

Some gadgets I came to late in the game.  My first MP3 player was a gift from a company I was working for at the time.  My first fitness tracker was a gift from my mother.

This week I stepped up from just a fitness tracker to a smart watch.  My hesitancy to make the jump had more to do with battery life than anything, and I am still trying to find my rhythm with when and where to charge it.

I’m still wearing my Fitbit for the time being too, as I figure out the differences between them so that I can interpret the results on my Samsung watch in relation to what I am used to.  For example, as I sit here at my office desk, my Fitbit says I’ve put in 2846 steps, while the watch says 2196.  The other area I notice a real difference is in sleep tracking.

The whole point of the watch was to replace the Fitbit, which is having serious issues since I cracked the screen in Italy.  Doing it before the Fitbit dies completely was important to me, so that I could make the transition the way I am.

Of course, the problem with all this connectivity is that I get notifications for things on my computer, my phone and my watch now, and they aren’t perfectly in sync, so they buzz, buzz, buzz at me!

Anyway, it’s another rainy day here in San Francisco.  I hope there’s some sunshine where you are, Readers!  I’m off to have some coffee.

 

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